Errands and tasks

For some reason, whenever my family members asked to do something for them, I'm always very reluctant. But I'm unable to refuse them, so I will just drag it until they are freaking annoyed or I decides to do it willingly.

But when it come to friends asking, I will be very willing to do it, although whether I put my heart into it is another thing... and there's also the danger of me procrastinating, since I was very irresponsible in the past.

Take for example, my stepmother ask me to fix her PC, as it crashed due to viruses and spywares. I took one month to finish the job. Or more specifically, one day to finish the job, the 29 days before that I can't be bothered.

But when Phil's hard drive crashed, I offered to help him extract his important data. It was all done in one day, when he comes to my house. And I was more than happy to help him.

This month, all three members ask me for help. My dad ask me to sign a new telephone line for his office, which I have been holding off since last month. My stepmother ask me to install the router and her wireless card. I hold it for a week until i finished the job just now in less than half an hour. My sister ask me to help her dismantle the wires on her PC, wwhich currently I can't be bothered, since she's not even home. Probably I will give her a "very sianz" face when i see her.

They say blood is thicker than water. I say friendships are thicker than kinship (in my case).

Crazy about a game, turns out to be...

a fruitless attempt.

If you have been reading my otaku blog, you should know that I've been yapping on and on since last year on a game that seems to keep getting delayed. Yesterday Playboxx (the gameshop that I preoder the game from) called me at mid afternoon that the game is here. Surprise overwhelmed me as I did not expect it to be here THAT fast. This got me head on, adrenaline pumping like nobody's business. In cold sweat (coz I'm in an air-con office :p) and trembling with excitement, I worry whether I have enough money to buy the game. I got into a panic, and decides to the nearest ATM to check my bank a/c, all in the midst of work. After securing the funds, since my game console was not with me, I called Ben and we decided to meet after my class. And since I got class, by the time I go to the gameshop it will be closed, I attempt to get Zhiye and/or Joseph to help me buy the game, since both live near the gameshop (sort of). In the end, I decides that I will go down myself myself instead as I'm worried that by the time i get my game from them, there will be no more transport. At most late for school lor...

Well, I was not exactly late for sch, since I left the office 30 mins earlier, with permission (and no, of coz I din tell my boss my real motive). Class ended early unexpectedly, and I immediately rush down to meet Ben to get my PS2. By the time I reach home, it's already 11pm...

And so, I started playing the game. 15 mins later, I fell asleep.

WTF!!!!!!!

After all that anticipation about the game, how can I fell asleep like that? Well there are two reasons:

1) I always tend to fall asleep when I play SRW. Considering how much I love the game, I think it's a curse... Well there are reasons for it but i won't go into it here...

2) This is the bigger reason: This game was a remake, and I've already COMPLETED the original game THREE freaking times. No surprise that you will fall asleep while playing a game you are so familiar with, isn't it?

Random crap

I really have to quit my bad habits. The moment i reach home, I'm glued to my PC for hours without me realising it. When I realised it, it's already midnight and time to sleep...

What did I do on my PC? Well, just surfing around for anime & game news and socio-political blogs. And probably looking for new anime songs to dl. Meaning I'm just idling around, even when I'm at the computer. The only sensible thing I did this whole week was to sort out my jumbo of stuff in my hard drive, especially the songs which are all over the place. And also to burn out some 20gb worth of stuff, as my hard drive is near to completely full.

And oh yes, MSN was pretty much distracting too. And considering I have few frens, this comes as a wonder. Let's see, Phil, Fred, Zhiye, Joseph, Weichen, Neville, Jonathon, and maybe Adele (if i'm not working). not much isn't it? Ok there are some other oversea frens with the same interests (anime songs.. -_-) as me, but they are rather infrequent, so it doesn't matter.

The last module was a disaster. So I've make sure I will study everyday for the Cell Biology module. But then, the PC is too much of a distraction. And I've already place all of my otehr distractions away (PS2 lent to Ben, NDS lent to Adele, manga all kept in cupboard, animes which I prevent myself from watching as i can easily watched one whole series at a go, models kits I'm too lazy to make...). So the only times i study (other than at school) are at home when I'm not distracted (not as rare as what you will think, thank you) and on the MRT train, since I bring my textbook around everyday, regardless of whether there's school. But then, I can only concentrate for 10 mins or so, after that it's an automatic descent into deep sleep. Haiz...

This module is quite fun, since I have started to gain that interest towards molecular biology. FYI, in the foundation module for bio, I didn't catch any sense in the DNA replication, DNA to RNA transcription, RNA to protein translation, introns & exons and such. Only now did I manage to appreciate it. God gracious me, haiz...

At least that means the textbook will be much more enjoyable. Probably at a level where i will choose to read the textbook instead of reading the whole of the Water 7 arc of One Piece.

I know I'm pessimistic, but I didn't realise it until recently. I always thought I'm optimistic, but that turns out to be a illusion churned out by my carefree character, which was in turn derived from my lack of thinking and heck-care attitude. I should have realise it when I sunk into depression when I drop out of JC, but I didn't, since I can't be bothered with my life anymore (at that time).

I haven't watch the Matrix trilogy that YM lent me... damn need to find some to time to watch...

But then SRW OGS is coming out real soon, and probably next week and so on I will be instead glued to my PS2. Or worse still, glued to BOTH the PC and PS2. The only comfort i can derive from all this is that I tend to fall asleep while playing the game, so I won't probably spend too much time on the game. Now now, I need to exert some self control... Luckily I lent my NDS to Adele, or else I will be in a trouble of trinity, tsh tsh...

I want a WII... there's so many games I want to play... let's see, for those that are already released: Warioware Smooth Moves, The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess, Wii Sports, Big Brain Academy: Wii Degree, Trauma Center Second Opinion, Super Paper Mario, Resident Evil 4 Wii Edition, Excite Truck.

For those that are not released yet: Super Smash Brothers Brawl, Metroid Prime 3: Corruption, and probably a few others that I've forgotten...

Jialiang is leaving soon, and I want to sing karaoke with him again... Must try to get everybody together again... Well, at least this sat we are probably meeting at his house. Speaking of which, i got another friend who going to Aussie too. Sianz... both leave in July, one on 10th and another on 15th... I also wan to go too :p Too bad no money.

Yes, and more makan sessions. And I want to drink together with him, at least once. That time at Sun with Moon drinking sake doesn't count, though sake is potentially high in alcohol content.

I want to start learning japanese proper. All these years, I've always been self-tutoring myself, but it has its own limits. This is proven when I can't even form sentences... so once I found a full time job, and after I manage to get a bike license, it's off to go for some japanese courses. And contrary to popular belief, I'm not learning it for the sake of anime and such. Yes, it might be influenced, but I douby my passion is so... skin deep. If so, why the hell have I been self-consciously learning it all these years?

Today's the first time I wear totally black. And When I meet Fred, he was in awe that I actually look good in black. Oh man, I din expect that, no wonder people around me were looking at me. At first i thought it's because I look weird or something... And the reason I don't wear black totally is because it look like im going to a funeral... ok, i juz realise you wear white going to chinese funerals... today i got no choice since i can't find a shirt that's not black...

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.... GREAT. I spent too much time on my PC again. Same mistake all over again.. Ok, time to go bathe and sleep. Tomorrow still got work and school...

interesting and uninteresting day

Started temporary work today, at the same place where I worked for two days a month ago. Boring job, since it's just archiving old documents. Almost fell asleep for a few times, and anything that I'm write while I'm half awake are all rubbish.

Well, the interesting part is that I met Fred for lunch. And boy, was it a long journey. Originally we are supposed to meet at City Hall (I worked very near Raffles Place MRT, while Fred was around Bras Basah), but I didn't realise the place was so freaking far away (Phil you were right lol). Even when I'm rushing (and didn't got lost on the way), it took me ten minutes. And so when I met him at City Hall, he give me two choices. Wanton mee for 3 or 4 bucks, or malay chicken rice for $5+. For obvious reasons, I immediately chose wanton mee. As we are on our way to our destination which I've no idea of, we took the underpass below SMU. The journey seems quite long to me, and I thought that he's bringing me to Bugis. Imagine my surprise when I landed at Sunshine Plaza. That's like near Dhoby Ghaut!! And Fred was surprised that I know the place. Well of course I know, that's one of the places where you hunt for japanese toys. But then again I didn't realise the wanton mee there is famous. Most of the time, I'm too distracted by the toys as well as the Selegie beancurd. And here I was thinking that I'm in deep shit, since I'm SO far away from my workplace. But nevermind, for the time being I'll enjoy my wanton mee. It was pretty good, the char siew is sweet and chewy, the mee was very "Q", and they were not stingy with the sauce, which goes really well with the wanton mee, though it's rather salty. Now that I think about it, how come I forgot to order the spicy version? Oh well, it was good enough. There's still the sour green chilli to go along anyway.

Realising that by the time I walk back to my workplace it will be too late, I decided to try take the MRT back, and so Fred lead me to the Bugis MRT. And crap, within 5 mins of walking I saw Guan Yin temple. I never ever realise that Sunshine Plaza was so freaking near Bugis (okay it's not really near, but it's kinda in the middle of Dhoby Ghaut and Bugis, so next time when I need to go there I do not need to go all the way to Dhoby Ghaut).

Today then I realise that Fred do appreciate good food. but the funny thing is that when the four of us go out for makan outing, Fred has relatively much less comments than Phil, though I'm sure both of them are rather picky when it comes to food. For starters, both do not like to eat veggies, haha. And little did I know that Fred was damn familiar with the place, when he can even get lost in Orchard... Goes to show that he does have his sense of direction, unlike Phil.

Hmm... I just realise that Fred also knows this "secret" blog (coz I din tell a lot of people... one hand is enough to count). And the worst thing is that nobody told him the URL, he found out himself through his experience of searching for case articles online. Yes yes, I'm damn predictable... Maybe I should stop bad-mouthing him.. there's already another person who's at my throat *laughs*

After work I met with Fred again, and we shared a one-foot Subway sandwich for dinner. This week I'm probably going to see Fred a lot of times, haha.

Today I got class, so I went to school. As I step into the school, I'm surprised to find so many people standing at the corridor. I thought that the doors were locked, but turned out that the lights were out. Wandered for a while, before Melvin sms me and told me he's already in the classroom. Luckily, the air-con is still on so we can still stay in class. Imagine my horror when I step into class: My lecturer was teaching in darkness! Wow, that's damn pro.

He's teaching some fundamental stuff on Cell structure, where he talks about the different organelles (membrane, ER, Golgi Apparatus etc). He also touched on how the mitochondria generates ATP, and how the chloroplasts produce sugars. All these were all covered in O' Level biology (or is it A' Level? don't know lar, as long as I learned them in the foundation course, can liao), and probably that's the reason I could understand him well. Or maybe he's good at teaching, as he talked about the generating of ATP, I can imagine the whole process in my head. The most interesting thing to me that he said was that the microtubules are like highways, and I can imagine a floating city inside a cell. For some reason, it intrigues me, lol. He covered the whole of the lecture, though quite slip short, in 25 minutes. Maybe other people don't find this lecture interesting, but in total darkness (I removed my specs when I'm listening to him, so I can't really see anything. I can close my eyes, but it seems too disrespectful, plus I might fall asleep) I'm able to shut all my other senses (the eyes are the biggest distraction), and it allows me to focus on listening and translate his words as images in my brain (but that's provided you know how those organelles look like, or it won't work). Originally, I'm a person who can't multi-task well, so such an environment proves to be beneficial to me. It's pretty much the same thing when I listen to the Mr Brown show, and that's probably why I loves to listen to it, other than the reason that I like his satire.

Next time, I should just record whatever the lecturer says and listen to it while I shut off all my other senses. It might works wonders for me. Or better still, I can just do it during class, and suffer any consequence of kena "poked" by Melvin, or go into my "la-la" dreamworld. :p

I lost my fone...

yap, and I'm damn sad... coz I like my HP number and I love my black Sony Ericsson K750.

Becoming emotionally mature

"What someone else says cannot really annoy or irritate you unless you permit it to disturb you. The only path by which another person can upset you is through your own thought. If you get angry, you have to think through four stages in your mind.

1) You begin to think about what was said.

2) You decide to get angry and generate an emotion of rage.

3) Then you decide to act.

4) Perhaps you talk back and react in kind.

As you see, the thought, emotion, reaction and action all take place in your mind.

What does it mean to be emotionally mature? It means that you move beyond the natural, but childish, tendency to respond negatively to the criticism and resentment of others. No one likes to be criticized or belittled. However, we have the ability to choose how to react when it happens. The mature choice is to refrain from responding in a similarly negative way. Responding in kind means to descend to the level of belittling criticism and to become one with the negative atmosphere of the other. Identify yourself with your own aim in life. Do not permit any person, place, or thing to deflect you from your inner sense of peace, tranquility, and radiant health."

Excerpt from "The Power of Your Subconscious Mind", by Dr. Joseph Murphy

I guess I have no right to lecture anyone on this, since it's not easy for people who are easily irritated, and I'm already pretty immune to criticism (thanks to Fred's "training"). However, this excerpt is what I feel strongly about, and those who are affected in such a negative way should try to follow the advice above, as I can vow for it with my experience.